Aging

Pretty soon, I'll be 19, which is a year away from 20, which is halfway to 40. I have one more year [+ like 3 days...] to enjoy my "teens" age because then I'll be twenty, not a teen anymore D: I'll be OLD.

It's my brother's birthday tomorrow, and he's turning 8. When you're that age, you're still like happy because birthday means presents, friends come over, go out to eat at a restaurant, and of course eat cake. Yeah those were fun days. Now, though, it's strange to have a birthday party because you're "too old." It's like a family thing I guess for birthdays of people my age. It's usually just eat a cake at home with the family. At this age, we don't usually invite friends over, havea big party. At least, I usually don't. And I don't really care that much about the presents thing, since "I'm too told for that." Especially since my birthday's two days after my brother's, my family just goes out to eat for one of us. Now that my grandpa's here too, his birthday will be celebrated with ours too, since it's also tomorrow, the same as my brother's birthday.

My birthday is now an indifferent thing. It wouldn't be YAY happy if my brother's birthday wasn't so close. He gets some presents and a few of them are pretty cool, so I usually end up playing with them >.<... :D.

I feel like this age sucks, like the ages between 18 - 21. You're in college, learning mostly things you'll never use again in your life. I want to be applying to medical schools. With my current GPA, I might actually get in somewhere, whereas I might not in a few years. Hopefully my GPA won't drop. I wanna be prepping for the MCATs, so I can challenge the standarized tests again, and hopefully, triumph over them. I want it to be the summer after my senior year. That's probably the next time I get to go to China to visit relatives I haven't seen since 2004 and maybe even vist Japan.

Yeah so my conclusion for this morning is aging sucks. I don't want to grow up. I wanna run away from responsibility, too, and all the other hardships of REAL life. PETER PAN WHERE ARE YOU?

What to write...

I've been outta interesting things to write about, so I'm not really sure what to say. I predicted this was coming when I said I was going to post more often and then run out of things to say. So, yay! My prediction's right.

So right now, the task I've been assigned to do is to basically assign specimens to a TMA Block which consists of 360 samples x___X. It's basically click sample, click assign, click the thing I assign... x360... T.T Tedious/boring D:... That's like ...
1
360
x 3
____
1080 (yay math)

1080 Clicks D:

Also, my white manager isn't here (She's gone this week) and my azn manager has two appointments today, so she's leaving at like 12:30. Hmmmmm............... I wonder what I'll do then...................... Maybe I'll go find some corner no one goes to like my desk and sleep

m(___)m-zZzZzZzzZzZzZzZzzZzzzzzzzzzzzzzz...

Why do we reject the things we clearly want?

Why do we reject the things we clearly want? Like someone offers you candy. You clearly want it, so then why do you force yourself to reject the offer anyways? Is it pride? Self-image?

Countdown

I am going back in almost exactly two weeks.

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!

[Yes I'll probably regret saying that ...few months from now... but ehhh :D;]

So I don't have much to do, so I will lecture a prefroshie [cough] about Rochester and tell more LHSers to come :D

Update on Schedule... #idk

I'm pretty sure this will be my final schedule for next year...





Unless I change maybe a few recitations and labs around, otherwise, this will be my final schedule. I might change bio recitation and lab to wednesday just to make my Tursdays and Thursdays happier. But yes, I'm like 99% sure that these will be the classes I end up taking for next semester.

[I lol @ the Hutch Hutch Hutch Mel Hutch Hutch Hutch (rooms)]

Also, kinda interesting how my Tuesdays and Thursdays start when my Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays end. It's like I have 3 completely full days on separate days lol... I wish linguistics was MWF 2:00 - 2:50, then everything would work out perfectly :D

Presentation

T__________________T. It's like my worst nightmare, speaking in front of many people that is. I have no self confidence at all and I have to do well on this presentation or it'll make my mom look bad --> mom lose job --> no money --> financial crisis --> can't pay for college --> can't live. Yeah no pressure at all... I haven't begun really prepping for it, but I shall work on it today and I'm supposed to get the basic outline done by Friday so my managers can help me correct it, and then my presentation is like at 2pm next Wednesday, August 12th, 2009. It'll be my first formal presentation... ugh so nervous... I'll post how well/crappy of a job I do afterwards ><;

As a response...

As a response to my previous question, it is too much to ask for because I'm "crap" and "don't deserve to be complimented."

She just disowned me this morning.

Financial Aid...

So I can't read or add... because apparantly they gave me an extra $2,600 after my appeal letter, not $600. I blame their... many types of grants...

My Financial Aid Awards:

Dean's Scholarship - $7,000
Rochester National Grant - $4,00
Rochester National Grant Supplement - $2,000
Rochester Undergraduate Grant - $2,600
Federal Work Study Eligibility - $3,000
Federal Direct Subsidized Loan - $4,500
Federal Direct Unsubsidized Loan - $2,000

So basically... I get ~$12,000 "cash" and $4,500 loans [can't take the $2,000 because of interest >_<;] and lol idk what I'm going to do about workstudy... So lazy and don't wanna work D:

Is it too much to ask for?

Is a "good job you did something right for once" too much to ask for?