Flora and Irene owe me money

This is a note to myself that Flora owes me $4 and Irene owes me $3 >:[

Two weeks before...

It is like exactly two weeks before school starts. YAAAAAAAAAAAY!! As you can see, I am very excited to go back to school :D! What am I doing for the two weeks before school starts? EAT >_<.

So basically tomorrow, my mom's friends at AstraZeneca are taking me out to lunch because I usually eat lunch with them at work.

Friday, my manager and supervisor are taking me out to lunch because it's my last day. We'll proabably go out to dinner either Friday or Saturday because Friday is my bro's and my grandpa's bday and Sunday is mine.

Sunday, after hospital shadowing [yes I'll be spending half of my birthday in the hospital ><;], I'll probably go with Kyumin and maybe others to porter to eat TAKOYAKI :DDD [Can't wait to try it].



Tuesday, TJ is coming and we'll probably eat lunch at Minados [sushi :D :D :D], and maybe take him porter/Chinatown or something for dinner or for lunch Wednesday because we'll probably all be too stuffed from Minados.



Thursday and Friday are going to be packing days and we're going to drive back to Rochester Saturday~




Then Sunday - Tuesday is like Shengji/Mahjong/Badminton/Tennis days.



Yep, so those are my plans for the next two weeks. Wow I sound too happy in this post, it's even making me feel weird.

Tentative Schedule for Fall 2010

So this is my tentative schedule for next semester, at least, if I get everything I want [work and volunteering]. The blue represents work and volunteering. The yellow represents sports/exercise. More yellow may be added later depending on how busy I am. Because my BIO261W, Animal Behavior Research Course, has just been changed from 2credits to four 4credits, I am no longer in the class because I have to go back and add this course as an overload. Yeah I'm going to be busy next year... T__________T. I was hoping to have a relaxing year too... but I guess that's for second semester. This is like senior year in high school. First semester was like really busy and second semester is like empty, or rather, I didn't really care about second semester, so I didn't do anyhting about it even though it was still busy. I have random slots throughout the day that I'll hopefully be using to do homework and I'm free usually after 8/9PM. Yeah I don't think I'll have too much socializing time next year... I still need to find a time to go do groceries >_<; or Linda and I will starve on the weekends and Linda will die. I'm fine with starving or eating random crap, but Linda will die... Wahhh it's so crowded :(. Just endure it for one semester..... then it'll all be good...

Another Slight Change w/some Reflection

I changed my background quite a bit because the black was starting to annoy me. Maybe this change symbolizes the change from depressed/gloomy me to a lot happier me compared to high school, so it would be a change for the better, I guess [Yes, I disagree with Chinua Achebe's book Things Fall Apart. Change is for the better!].

People change a lot in college and I guess I've changed a bit, hopefully matured a bit compared to before. Of course I'm hoping to change myself even more because even though I've gotten more open with people and I've attained the ability to talk to someone seriously without sarcasm or attempting to crack a joke every few seconds, I'm still my awkward self.

That's the part, I think, that needs to change the most... I need to learn how to communicate with people without being too "shy". I realize I need to get out of my comfort zone, which consists mostly of Chinese people my age and maybe even start talking to white people some day :O. I've never felt comfortable making what I thought a "fake conversation" with people, like asking people about themselves when I know I really don't care about the answer. Some times, I need to tell myself to pretend to care for the sake of the other person, but I can't help feeling like I'm lying to them and I'm hiding something from them. You know, those conversation starters like "How's the weather?", "How've you been?", "I like your [insert article of clothing]" sort of things. I especially can't see myself doing the last one. I've been trying to attempt conversations like "What've you been doing over summer?" but usually people answer with just "nothing" and the conversation goes nowhere and once again, I am at loss for words. I'm always amazed at how my mom can be one person at work and a completely different person at home. It annoys me, sure, to hide yourself from others, but now I think some times this is necessary to survive in this community. Being too honest is a bad thing now, but I still have this thing called guilt that keeps reminding me to be honest and it's hard to just ignore it. Maybe I'm just too lazy to do anything to change myself. I need to change that too. I've been answering too many "Why" questions with "Cuz I'm lazy" and I realize that's just an excuse to not do something. I've been forcing myself to not be lazy and actually maybe cleaning the house, doing the laundry, even when my parents don't tell me to do those things. It's hard to break out of those lazy habits of just sitting in bed with my laptop on my knees and watching dramas, chatting online, playing games all day, and never leaving my room [which I did during most of the Sundays at Rochester]. I was even too lazy to get out to buy some food... I had a bag of chips and a bowl of ramen the entire day Sunday. I've been trying to get out more and playing tennis every day [Sorry about bothering people about tennis like every day, but I really do need to get outside more and run around/enjoy nature more, plus tennis is awesome <3].

Next thing I should change is my study habit. I will attempt to try in school and see how that works out. Studying a lot for me in school is like sitting down for one hour and focusing for one hour. I don't understand how people [-cough- Linda -cough-] can lock themselves every night and study for like 6hours straight, sleep at 4/5am and wake up at 10am... I am amazed at people who are able to do that every single day... If I put in even a quarter of the effort they do, I'll feel proud. Right now, I'm putting in like an hour a week... while they're putting in around 40hours a week... next semester's schedule will be busier and hopefully I'll be able to manage my time well, along with cooking, cleaning and grocery shopping. Hopefully I'll spend less time watching dramas, playing games, chatting online, and spend those hours studying, playing sports [hopefully I'll have enough time for badminton and tennis next semester] and going outside more and hanging around with real people rather than just talking to them online.

Yeah so those are my reflections and what I think I should do in the future. I'm currently waiting for my manager to get his air condition fixed. He isn't sure how long it's going to take so I'm just waiting for him. He had to drive all the way back home and he says it's around a 30min drive without traffic and he left at like 11:30, so we'll see. AZ has been great. Working in chemistry made this summer go by really fast. I was just thinking, only four more weeks before my job here ends and only four more weeks before I hit two decades, five or six more weeks before I'm back at school and back at that other life in college with no restraints and freedom. But is it really freedom? With courses, work, and MCATs, I don't think it'll be too much different from now control wise, I just need to exercise some self control in order to carry out my future plans. That's it for now, I'll hopefully update this blog a bit more than I have been.

Grease

So I forgot to advertise on this blog about the musical by LYST [Lexington Youth Summer Theater] which my bro was in. He wasn't a main part but w/e he said he still had lots of fun. I went to watch it Saturday and it was pretty good. These kids are pretty good at singing and acting...

Well, here's my bro's banner/advertisement:


[Christopher Wang all the way on the right side :D]

There are like no asians in these things... He's the only Asian kid in his group. I saw three asians total: my bro, Alina's sister, and another azn kid I don't know

Organic Chemistry at AstraZeneca?

I haven't posted in a while because I've been busy with work... It's actually a lot more interesting working in Chemistry this year as an Intern compared to Biology. Sure it's so much more tiring [I'm in the lab 6/8hrs of the day while last year, I was in the like maybe 1/8hrs of the day >_<.] but it's quite interesting... or at least so far. I feel like things might start getting repetitive again because a lot of the techniques are the same, but in another way, it's not really repetitive because you need to figure out different ways to deal with each compound. I went to my first chemistry meeting today... but didn't understand half of what was going on. So many pharmaceutical company terms like PD, BID, MTD, etc. They're like all abbreviations... I could probably figure out what things meant if they said everything out loud, but hey... people are getting lazier and lazier.

Speaking of lazier... I haven't read my MCAT book in a while >_< and I had wanted to get through a chp a day at first... yeah that's not happening at all. Work is tiring me out and mom makes me go everywhere with her these days so I don't have much time to do what I want D:.

Okay, I'm going to go watch Wo Ai Hei Se Hui Bang Bang Tang now. I'm interested in the new people, esp Teddy. I wonder if they'll be on this one...

Haven't posted "in foreva"

So I made a formspring a few days ago [] because I thought answering some questions would let me reflect on some things and maybe get to know myself better through questions... Any interesting questions usually get me thinking about some things. So I figured I should learn a bit more about myself and created one. Also, that's probably why I decided to post because I just got a question on formspring about an hour ago that asked "how come you haven't updated your blog in foreva?" so I guess I'll update it [btw I'm pretty sure I know who asked this based on the spelling of "forever"]

I haven't posted in a while because this semester has been kinda bad so far especially orgo and biochem. I haven't done my routine "what do I think about my teachers" post yet, so I guess I'll do a quick one here.

Linguistics: Paauw [I had to look at the syllabus to figure out how to spell his name]
The class is actually pretty interesting so far and he really loves the subject so he's extremely enthusiastic in this class. I would pay attention more if he didn't just read off the slides and the posted the slides up later and if I didn't have other more interesting things to do in class [Like writing this blog... he's talking about Normans and Vikings right now... something about the history of English...] but I guess this is a nice relaxing class where I can do whatever I want and still do generally okay in the class. This is probably the only class I'm not failing right now... because it's my only non-science class.
Oh how to argue against linguists: "Well in my idiolect... "
lol right now he's talking about "It's OK to murder people you don't like" he's like technically... that's linguistically correct... but not really morally...

Physiology: Dietsche [Yes I had to look this spelling up too in the blackboard site...]
Dietsche is a funny guy... He says the randomest things and goes on random rants during class. I remember the first two classes, he was supposedly talking about the Scientific Method [is a way to solve a problem~ (7th grade Mr. Waldeck made us listen to that song...)] but he ended up going on a rant about how aliens can't possibly be seen on earth. He says if they have high enough technology as to come to earth, then we wouldn't calling them aliens, we'd be worshiping them like gods. Then he says aliens can probably bend light too so we can't see them... "IF YOU'RE IN HERE, YOU BETTER BE AUDITING!" Aside from the rants though, he's a bit boring because he just stands up there and talks, since we're in lower strong and we don't really have a board, so I need to record lecture.

Organic Chemistry: Frontier
Frontier's an awesome teacher and she's like young so she can relate. Like today in class, she said for us not to worry too much about our grades because we still have ~75% of our grade left, since the final's worth 50%. She says as long as you do well on the final, you should be fine in the class because she said when she was in college, she failed her 3 tests, but got one of the top scores in the class. She still ended up with a B in orgo and was really pissed off about that, so she's going to be different. That made me feel so much better because I'm like failing the course right now and her saying that gives me some hope...

Biochemistry: Culver
Everyone seems to hate her except I don't mind her teaching too much, it's just her grading. I have no idea why she takes points off. Someone in my workshop asked what we needed to know for the test and my TA literally said "Everything". I'm probably failing this class the most right now because she doesn't drop anything and the first test was really really bad.

I guess this post ended up being a bit long instead of a short post... I guess I'll try to update more because now I have formspring to inspire me and give me ideas to write/rant about...