Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Orgo Attempt #781236289476235

Yeah so I'm once again inspired to study for orgo [by that stupid guy in the forums with 4.0GPA and 42 MCAT score... <-- I want... GPA impossible, but MCAT score isn't impossible yet~ -hopeful-]. I basically spent the whole day so far [2:30pm]doing problem after problem of nomenclature... and just for alkanes and cycloalkanes/haloalkanes too >_<;;; [Not much to do at work beacuse they're waiting for a guy to come and team them how to use the new double-staining kit, and he's not coming till like next week, so not much to do]

I have just a few questions about orgo:

1. Why is it 6-ethyl-4,5-dipropylnonane and not 4-ethyl-5,6-dipropylnonane???

2. Wtf is iso/sec/tert/neo???

3. What's "the maximum number of substituents" rule??

4. When do you use tert vs 1,1-dimethylethyl?

5. How do you know when C becomes sextet??

6. WHERE ARE NUMBERS 19 AND 20 IN CHP 1 [I ONLY SEE 18 THEN 22]?!?!?!

7. How do you find the shortest/longest bond in a molecule?

8. How do you tell if something's acid/base/nucleophilic/electrophilic if it's something like MgBr2 or H2S?

--The End-- [ARGHAD;FJAKL;F]

Monday, July 27, 2009

Hmm...

I've been thinking of what to post on my blog for the past few days... probably mostly to cover up my previous entry lol and I guess only thing I could think of was to write about what I was thinking of doing >_<;;

In a happier thought though, the AstraZeneca azn party on Saturday lightened up my mood since I could actually get to talk to people my age-ish in person. I realized I don't think I can eat excessive amounts of meat... Apparantly a hamburger, a chicken wing, and Sichuan noodles are too much for my stomach to digest. Well and apparantly a small bowl of "wan zi tang [azn meatball soup]" with rice was too much too. Argh. No tennis, no food, this summer sucks D: I blame myself for basically going vegetarian [not on purpose though] throughout the beginning of the summer.

One more month before school starts :D! Oh and my ankle brace came, so I can actually play tennis/do some sports now :D

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

I want to go back to school and like never come back home again...

The status is self explanatory, though of course I would want to come back home because of my bro, but I am debating whether to return for Thanksgiving and Spring Break now.

Yes I'm in one of those emo moods that I haven't been since high school. Why? Because I'm back home again. Maybe I just can't handle my mom anymore. Maybe I can't handle her words anymore because I've been getting used to college life. Or rather, a life without anyone telilng me everything I'm doing is wrong, a life without every problem in the house blamed on me... well I guess since I'd be the only one in "the house", every problem would be blamed on me... but it's less anyways. If it was a huge mistake I made, and got yelled at, sure it's reasonable, but if I'm getting blamed for every little thing that's happening around the house... I don't know...

She yelled at me from home to work this morning for forgetting to turn off the light in the car. I didn't even turn on the light... she probably turned it on and forgot to turn it off, but of course, I have to maintain my emotionless state and just listen. Except this time... she got pissed off at my being emotionless and not talking back and started yelling about that. I really don't know what I can do or what I can say. Now, I can't even plead the 5th >_<.

I've currently reached the max I can handle right now and therefore is in an emo state. Hopefully, this emo state will go away soon, and won't happen again in a while because the themometer's been reset again. Maybe dramas and games will help. Though the problem with that... she was saying how just because I had gotten my computer back last night, I stopped playing piano. But I haven't played piano for a week and I'm not even wasting her money taking classes, so I don't see why she's pissed off.

I have realized... if I hadn't kept this emotionless state throughout high school, I probably would have committed suicide already. Maybe that's why I'm so messed up as a person. Am I even qualified to be a person? I fit the descriptions of a robot better. I'll probably stay emotionless until I'm out of the house. People have wondered why I'm like this and they try to "fix me" but I'm probably better off/safer staying emotionless. Stop trying until I get my own job/apartment... and maybe even my own life.

I have too many psychological problems. I probably should get a psychiatrist. Except they don't do much, we don't have money, and I or rather, my mom, wouldn't have time to bring me to one either, so in the end, I'm not going to get one. Maybe I just need company. Maybe I'm just lonely and want attention. I want my dad to come back and stay back. I want these two years my dad has left of residency/fellow to pass really quickly. Of course, since I will be waiting for the end of my junior year of college, it's going to come really slowly. Things are always like that. You never seem to get what you want, but rather the opposite. Why does life suck so much. I want to finish college, get into med school, finish med school, get into residency, become a good doctor, and have my own family.

Okay that last paragraph of Lan being extremely idealistic and just reading it voer again... half of those things probably aren't going to happen. Why? Because I'm lazy and don't like to study, so I probably won't get into med school. Argh. I can't seem to do anything right.

I need to go push a button and coverslip some slides. Maybe I'll post some more selfish complaints later.

Oh and my right ankle is still in pain =.=;... Because I'm stupid and went to play soccer with my bro [a month later after I hurt it >_<] and kinda hurt it again.

Monday, July 20, 2009

Time Issues...

So it's actually 4:51 right now, while blogger says it's 1:51... so blogger's on Cali time and I just realized it... I wonder how I can change it...........

Schedule [temporary >.<;;;]




So this is the current schedule I have right now and it might change between now and when classes actually start >.<;;;

[oh btw... MY COMPUTER'S COMING BACK TOMORROW :DDDDDDDDDDDD]

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Orgo Fun~

Yeah beacuse of my awesome ability to time things right, I decided to start, like actually start [aka doing next year's homework problems] studying for orgo, right when I actually start getting busy at work. Yay everything works out so well.

My comments about orgo homework? OMG WHY DOES EVERY PROBLEM HAVE A-I T________T... It takes me like a page to do one problem, hence like 10-15mins-ish to do one problem. I have realized my attention span is only about an hour, so I start getting bored after doing four problems... four pages of problems sounds better :D; [Euphemisms ftw >_<]

Oh as an update on my horrendous schedule next year... I emailed my counselor and I'm like "PLZZZZ TAKE MY HOLD OFF, I NEED TO DROP A SCIENCE CLASS T.T" So my counselor took the hold off [the hold as in something that prevents me from registering/dropping courses]. So I dropped Anatomy + Lab for Conversational Chinese and Linguistics [social science cluster hopefully... if I can't do well in linguistics, I'm literally screwed for social science because I suck at history more and history requires like 15page essays and like 6 books to read... I'm not going to have enough time for that >_<]

So now... I'm taking 20,5 credits: Animal Behavior [4.5 credits: extra 0.5 because I'm taking it with the writing portion for my W class requirements], Molecular Genetics [4 credits], Molecular Genetics Lab [1 credit], Organic Chemistry [4 credits], Organic Chemistry Lab [1 credit], Linguistics [4 credits], Conversational Chinese [2 credits].

4.5+5+1+4+1+4+2 = 9.5+5+7 = 14.5+7 = what?...

OH I wrote 5 credits for genetics instead of four

Attempt number 2:
4.5+4+1+4+1+4+2 = 8.5+5+7 = 13.5+7 = 20.5

w00t I can still add despite like more than a year without math :D

Friday, July 10, 2009

My Opinion on Social Science

I HATE SOCIAL SCIENCE AND ITS CLASSES WITH A PASSION >:[ ALSDKFJALSDKFJASLD;KFJAKL; YOU ARE RUINING MY LIFE AND COLLEGE CAREER RIGHT NOW >:(

Getting busy now ><;

I've actually been given projects to work on >_<;; so I'm getting busy now... Though argh this morning... I must've ran up/down the stairs four times within an hour time because of the stupid Ventana machine.

So I started a run last night, or rather I delayed it to start at 7:30 this morning, and I was supposed to put the primer on at 9:00 but when I went up at 9:10 [yeah intense traffic this morning... I left the house at 8:20... It took us like 40mins to drive like ... 7miles...] to put the primer on and then I see that the Run Completion bar on top of the screen said 0% and that I was signed off. I was like wtf why'd that happen D: Maybe I made a mistake in the start time! So I went to get my supervisor. She came up and she's like wtf, so we started the run for the second time, skipping the deparafinization portion of the run because the tissues looked deparafinized after we opened the machine to check the slides.

I was supposed to put the primer on at 10:50, so at 10:40, I went up and 'lo and behold, the run completion was 0% AGAIN. I ran downstairs from the lab [since my lab and office are on different floors] and went to bother my superviser AGAIN. This time, we noticed a statement saying something about the EZPrep. My azn supervisor then asked my white supervisor what this was, and she was also like wtf. So my azn supervisor thought maybe the pressure was wrong or something with the EZPrep, so she took that out, and put it back in again. After, we started the run once again.

Guess what happened? So after like 13mins, the machine started beeping saying there was something wrong with the EZPrep. By now, my azn supervisor was like "okay this experiment is like fail bcause we've run it too many times, so now let's keep running it to try to get the machine to work."

This time, we filled the EZPrep more, since it was low [even though the machine said there was enough] and started the run AGAIN. We took out the deparafinization and the cell conditioning steps for this run. This time, I literally sat there for 35 mins watching the machine, making sure nothing happens again. So after it got past the EZPrep stage, I went downstairs to ask my supervisor what to do with the slides and she told me to just stop the run and throw them away, since they're probably bad by now anyways. She said we'll just have to rerun this next Wednesday, because my white supervisor needed to use it Monday and Tuesday.

Yeah so that was my morning until like 11:00am. After that... my azn supervisor gave me this huge list of ID numbers of something and input them into Spectrum database... and I've only finish one outta four pages so far because it's so freaking long and tedious. Arggggggggggg I wanna go home and sleep T_____T...

I doubt I'm going home anytime soon because my mom hasn't finished her work yet, but she has a volleyball tournament [company tournament]at 2pm [1 min from now]... then she needs to finish her huge load of work... [why does she even play if she has so much to do >_<;;;?]

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Update on my laptop

So apparantly the box that was supposed to be sent to me to put my laptop in and ship back to them was delayed, and apparantly the box was sent to me at around 11:00am this morning [while I was sitting here doing absolutely nothing... oh attempting to learn orgo since, after talking to my mom's friend, whose son is probably going to medical school either this year or next year, I got some inspiration to do better] So in actuality... Tonight's the last night I'll have my laptop T_________________T and I'm like extremely tired, so I can't even stay up really late to watch drama >_<;;; [Speaking of... I just started watching Ghost Friends, despite the lame name, and saw episode 1 of Koishite Akuma ~Vampire Boy [Shintaro :D w/Nakaken~ and Nakayama Yuma] RAW yesterday, since it aired Tuesday night, Japan time.]

Oh as an update on my work... I'm actually getting my own projects to work on now x_X so I'll be busy and probably not as much time to update this blog... but we'll see... so like basically:

my azn supervisor: I know all you've been doing is like printing labels, coverslipping slides, and pushing buttons... but here's a project for you to do! You better not mess up! Any quesitons?
me: O.O... uhhh What do you do?

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Lunar Eclipse

I just remembered [because my bro's been waiting for today for like months] that there's a lunar eclipse tonight... except it's like raining so idk if we'll get to see anything... but still... 7/7/09 = Lunar Eclipse~ I'm sure my bro's gonna wait for it all night tonight ><;

[Edit] I was just searching through the NASA website and read:
July's penumbral eclipse is only of academic interest since the magnitude is just 0.156. Although the Moon will be above the horizon from most of Canada (Figure 4), the eclipse is so minor as to be completely invisible to the naked eye.

Meaning we'll probably see nothing T.T... Oh well, we'll just wait a few days for the solar eclipse on July 22nd, 2009 [Edit: Apparantly we're not getting that full solar eclipse either... unless you're in Asia... Youtube ftw!]

2009 Jul 07: Penumbral Lunar Eclipse
2009 Jul 22: Total Solar Eclipse
2009 Aug 06: Penumbral Lunar Eclipse
2009 Dec 31: Partial Lunar Eclipse

m(___)m- zZzZzZzZzZzzzzzzzzzz....

Yeah the title explains how I'm feeling today... I don't even know why... I slept from 11pm - 7am and I'm still extremely tired. There must be something wrong with me... I kinda just want to go back home and sleep now :( Summer sucks. At least I get to sleep till like 8:15-ish every MWF and whenever I want every TR... [R = Thursday]

I hate to say this but... I WANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOL T_______________T
Of course the ideal situation would be to go back to school and not have to take any classes but since that is not possible...

But for classes reason, I also DON'T want to go back to school because I'll be so screwed for my science classes, since I haven't started prepping for them at all... Zech made me realize last night that I haven't gotten any studying done at all while he has... ARGH I FEEL SO UNPRODUCTIVE BUT TOO LAZY TO DO ANYTHING... AAAAAAARGHEHADFJAHSFRHASDFASDFSLDKFALSDFKAARATAGRAGAGRRRRRGGGGZZZZZZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzz <-- yeah you'll need to say that out loud [Edit: in one breath] to figure out my true feelings today, but it represents more emotion than I've displayed in a really long time :D;

Monday, July 6, 2009

Noooooooo my computer T________T

So my computer is going to get sent away for repairs either tomorrow night or wednesday night because of the following reasons:

1. The left button on mouse on touchpad is like fail; it doesn't click.

2. The computer fan fails and so my computer heats up really quickly and stays at like 100oC... and the stupid external fan I bought from UR's store broke -_-;;; so that needs to get fixed

3. The hinges on my computer are like fail because the right one's broken, so basically... like the right half of my screen was partially falling off until my dad spent like an hour thursday night trying to fix it... so now it's sorta fixed, but I can't tilt the screen farther than 90o ><;


So I won't have a computer for a while... because it'll probably take like 2-3 days or 3-5 days for it to ship back, and they said the mechanic will take 8-10 days to fix it, and then it'll take another 2-3 or 3-5 days to ship back... so basically... my computer will be gone for like at least two weeks T_______________T...

[HOW AM I GOING TO WATCH DRAMAS NOW?!?! *SOBS*! Atleast Futatsu no Spica comes out tonight... I'll just have to miss two weeks of Konkatsu!, a week of Futatsu no Spica, two weeks or Mr. BRAIN, two weeks of Easy Fortune Happy Life, uhhh... two weeks of Aishteru [though one week if I watch it Tuesday before I send it off...]... hmm there must be more dramas than this... no wonder I'm rather bored these days... Oh I was going to watch I Do?, since it came out last year... but now I won't be able to watch past what I've already watched last night, aka till ep 5 outta 20 episodes total :(... and I did watch ep 1 and 2 of Fighting Spirit... since I didn't have anything else to watch, but only 2 eps so idk yet... and 2eps comes out a week so I'll miss like 4 eps of it ><; wow... so much catching up to do in like August... and I still needa start studying too argh a;dfkla'sdl;]

Thursday, July 2, 2009

Dean's List 2

So I just got home like 10minutes ago and there was two letters for me from University of Rochester. The first one I opened was the "Tuition Refund Plan", just in case I die or drop outta school... which means, just in case I die, my parents get a full refund. Except this plan costs $200+ so there's no way my parents are going to get it, so that's going into the trash.

The second letter is my Dean's List letter! Yay! Yes this is 25% cotton too. I'm going to put that where my other Dean's List Letter is... now where did my mom put that anyways.................. -going to look, bye-

Update on the weather

So it's been really wet these days... and rainy/gloomy today. It was extremely dark outside until just recently and it's already 9:44am ><;; I wonder how my mom and bro are going to go camping in this rainy weather... apparantly, it's raining more at Cape Cod.



Ohhh look, what lovely weather we're going to have...[extended forecast]... yay for more wetness and T-storms today...



So about the Hershey thing... my mom was like "lol all you'll be eating is chocolate... so bad for you >:[ and we'll have to take a few days off because PA = too far away" ><;; but she didn't completely reject the idea! which is a good sign :D

In other news, apparantly a flight had to land ["was diverted"] in a random place because this guy was dancing naked on the plane *and* they had a medical emergency... Talk about nice timing for the guy to dance naked... Also, in the news was about this guy who fell off his hospital bed, and ended up winning 5mil after he and his wife sued the hospital O.o... At the end of the article, it said the hospital's going to appeal... no really... 5mil o.O... [of course if that 5mil was in mesos xDD Wahhh I want all my mesos in MS to be my real money T.T... I'd be happy even if they took like ...four 0s off... maybe even six 0s off... [$30 isn't that bad..., if I still all my stuff, I might end up with like $100...]

TODAY FEEEEEEEEEELS LIKE FRIDAYYYYYYYYYYYY AND FRIDAY = <3 SO I AM HAPPY IT'S THE LONG WEEKENDDDDDDD YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY! [yeah idk what's wrong with me]

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Vacation?

My mom, in the car this morning, told me to plan to go somewhere on one weekend... But like we can't really play that much for only one weekend >_<;;; so it kinda fails... So I was searching this morning for places to go to and somehow, I ended up in Hershey, Pennsylvania and thought, my bro would love to go to Hershey, the Park and see how chocolate is made and everything. I haven't told my mom yet, but I feel like she's not gonna go >_<;; we'll see...

In other news about my life... I spent the whole day basically at the computer because my superviser wanted me to look up and make data sheets for a few antibodies... and by look up, she means look them up on their companies' websites, which weren't cooperating. Though, I think it might be the internet that wasn't cooperating, but same diff... so the pages were taking so long to load >_<;; but yeah I finished that now and is waiting to leave at around 4:45/5 since Grandma has a doctor's appointment [physical therapy, I think] at 5:30. I'm hoping to stay home today because I wanna sleep early tonight... I've been sooooooo tired these days... I was forcing myself not to fall asleep during work today ><;;; I really don't know why... I think it's because I've been too used to too much sleep. Normally 7hrs of sleep would be plenty, but now, I'm really tired after 7hrs of sleep.

Symptoms: Memory loss, fatigue, maturity
Treatment: NONE
Diagnosis: I'M GETTING OLD T_____________________T

HA there's my first step of becoming a doctor! Yay! -Victory Sign-