Realization of Life during winter break...

After finishing a drama and looking around facebook tonight... I suddenly got the feeling... "life is so boring." Ahhhh this is frustrating! I wish something interesting would happen in my life... at least something to change from this repetition. adlkfja;dslfka'ldfs >:[

Every day is like the same, at least right now. The semester will just be more studying and more exams. Ahhhhh why am I premed?! Why must I choose this study-based path? It seems so boring and I've recently been losing motivation to study. Sure I really think a doctor career would be interesting, but ughhh. I should title my blog "The Frustrating Life of a Typical Premed" or something.

I've also realized recently (like maybe like two months ago) that I can't be one of those people who just stay at home and watch dramas and play games all day. I start getting frustrated like I am now and like have an urge to go run around and use up all this energy that I haven't been using by staying in all day. I really want some fun or twist in my life... something that makes me think and maybe something that makes me challenge my lack of emotions. The most excitement I've been getting is from the dramas I've been watching and that is kind of sad.

I also don't know what I can do to change this repetition either. I've decided to be more open-minded, so maybe that will make my life a bit more interesting, as hopefully, I'll be trying new things more often. I'm getting sick and tired of working over summer, job searching, studying for mcats, etc right now and really need to find something to motivate me. I know my future career is important too and I really shouldn't be playing around at this time, but it's just hard to find motivation these days. Maybe it's because House hasn't aired in sooooooo long... I should go looking around for some more medical dramas to watch haha.

Anyhow, I just hope my life will be more exciting than it is right now and I hope this sickness goes away >:[.

[Edit after a long hot shower:]
I thought about it some more and then realized I just want life to be less predictable. I want to be in awkward situations because they are interesting. Yep, I hope my I get in to tons of awkward situations in the future that even I might feel awkward in, or in a situation where I've never been in and don't know what to do or say.